It sure is a mixed bag of feelings.
But the first thing you feel is … that you are tired. I felt as if two years of my focussed hard work had culminated that day when i gave the paper. All i wanted to do then was rest, as if i had covered a long distance with no break. And that was what it was too.
I chilled out a lot as soon as i came home and slept without meaning too. The 6 hours of the actual JEE paper drain you more than the All India Test Series (and even the AITS papers drain much more than normal studies do).
But, after you have given the paper, you begin to feel what marks you are expected to get, and what rank. I was pretty happy, thought i had a good rank with me. But, I never believed in it. Always expect the least, to be happiest. So…that was that.
I never checked my marks through the answer key. I never cared.
I enjoyed with family, started pursuing new hobbies…something my jee prep had not allowed me to do.
And then you realize, JEE is just a paper… but the journey was fun.